I want to hate you and never think of you ever again. You are such a jerk.
Sa pagkakaalam ko, wala naman akong problema. Kumakain ako ng tatlong beses sa isang araw. May tinitirhan ako. Wala naman akong family problems. Kung gusto ko, mabibili ko ang mga luho ko sa buhay. Madami naman akong kaibigan. Pero bakit ganun? I feel alone. I feel sad. I still feel like wala akong pinatutunguhan sa buhay. Akala ko sa pagkakaroon ng trabaho, makikita ko na kung saan ako patungo. Pero parang distraction lang din yung walong oras na pag-stay sa office. Distraction from the one thing that’s really eating me up inside. Loneliness. Ayoko na.
The thoughts in my head are stressing the hell out of me. I close my eyes and this fear just flows all over my body and I just want to cry but no tears are coming out. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to think. I’m like this piece of paper with nothing but squiggly lines all over it. Nothing makes sense. There’s no direction. Something inside me is hurting but I keep telling myself that it’s okay. I’m okay. What a lie.